Reencarnacion

Dios... nunca m habia sentido tan overwhelmed como hoy. Comparto mi esencia con alguien. Hay un grupo de personas en el mundo que nacio con mentalidad. Vida y Muerte, cuac. Me voy a casar con estas personas en McDonald's.

Dear Host Family:

You can’t imagine how thrilled I am to be writing this essay right now. For several years now, I’ve been trying to picture and visualize how would my life be with a completely different family in a foreign country, and it’s finally becoming true. My name is Andrea Avendaño Vargas (we use two last names in Costa Rica). I’m 14 years old right now, but when I’ll get there I’ll be 15 already. My birthday is on February the 19th, so I am a proud Aquarius and I was born under the element of Air. I’m not sure if you would understand what I mean by this, but I would try to explain in a few words.
Astrology is a fundamental part of my life and it affects deeply the way I perceive the thing that surround me. I use it as a tool for acceptance of others and comprehension of the actions and decisions taken by the people around me. Due to the fact that I am an Aquarius I tend to be very idealistic and analytic, but also rebellious and bull-headed. I believe my sign to be one of the most influential of the zodiac, due to the inner force that the Air signs carry. I am strong to my ideals and convictions, one of them being the most important, Vegetarianism.
I am fond of animals. Mammals, insects, fish, birds, vertebrates, non-vertebrates, you name it. My affliction towards living things doesn’t allow me to hurt or kill them in any way as possible. I try not to feed the meat industry as much as I can, considering there are many animal based products that are almost impossible to avoid. Besides de cruel murders committed by this industry, there are other environmental issues that they have that I disapprove. In terms of pollution the meat industries contribute 18%, with gases like carbon dioxide and mostly methane (3 times worst than CO2). I believe these reasons made a part of my conscience wake up when I was in first grade, that is when I decided to become vegetarian and since then I’m proud to say I’ve been loyal to them.
Besides the fact that I am fond of the esoteric, I tend to grasp strongly to philosophy and art. One of my biggest sources of happiness is color. I can spend the whole day making digital art, drawing or taking pictures. My artistic goal is to always present reality from my perspective, and I am very excited to be able to change of scenery and create a whole new perspective of life there. I believe this side of me was developed mostly in my school, which very humanistic and liberal, and by my family who have always supported by artistic development.
My family is formed by: my mother, my father, my brother and me. My relationship with my family has always run smoothly. Probably because none of us demand a lot, our relationship is based on equality, understanding, love and tranquility. Happily we’ve never had any mayor problems between us, just off course the usual misunderstandings and fights over the TV remote. (AFS asks “What is your role in the family?”) I’ve never thought about it before, and it’s indeed a bizarre question. I guess my role in my family is to bring joy, comfort and stability daily. Due to my Aquarian personality, I don’t usually look for advice from my parents or friends. I like to figure out things by myself and I appreciate being in control of my personal life. I base my decision making in the consequences they can have, but I never let fear stand in the way of my happiness. I have a Pisces as a brother, so we are basically opposites, which I believe gives a kick to my family. It makes everything more interesting to have two completely different opinions and actions always. Luis Diego, my brother, is more reserved and serene. He tends to over-analyze everything, so he ends up restraining himself from life. My role in our relationship is to try to unbound him from his fear, and relax him as much as possible.
I have many dreams and goals for my future. The only problem is that I can’t seem to able to straighten up my priorities. I love doing so many things, that choosing between them is a crime. I really don’t want to base my studies in how much money I’ll produce or how much fame I’ll gain, so what I’m trying to do know is to figure out how can I integrate everything I am passionate about in one career. I t is almost impossible, at such a young age, to be certain of what do I want to spend a huge period of my life doing, but for know I was finally able to put it all in a sentence. What I want to study is the fusion between psychology and astrology in relationship with the human anatomy. Some scientists call it “Biological Psychology”, but I want to go beyond that concept and mix astrology into it.
I believe I’m at the period of my life in which I should exploit myself as much as I can, and I don’t see a better way of accomplishing this than by integrating myself into a completely different environment. I feel I need the adrenaline rush, the dread, the home-sickness, the loneliness, the joy, the change, the new concepts, the teachings, the cultures, , basically the exciting opportunity of growing as a person and hopefully being able to cultivate my independence. Im aiming to see the world and the people inside it in a much bigger scale, and to use this as a tool for the rest of my life.
I always wish to be productive in every minute of my life, because like I said earlier I love to do a lot of things and I have an insatiable thirst of knowledge. Ironically, I am for the most part the one in charge of letting this happen. I’ve always considered myself a mediocre person, and I believe this is what frustrates me the most about myself and my life in general. I hardly give all of my effort; even in the things I enjoy doing. I lament the many hours a day I’ve spent at my computer chatting or looking at pictures instead of using my time wisely learning something. Part of the reason I want to start a new life is to get ride of that laziness I keep effortlessly dragging around. I’m obliged by myself to exploit and take every chance I get, and to reduce to a minimum my “free” time.
I find another big obstacle in my life to be my parent’s overprotection. Their fear of something bad happening to me is constantly getting in the way of my desire of learning. Costa Rica, safety-wise, can be considered a dangerous country for a 15 year old, but as my mom, ironically, always says “I gave my children the tools, now its time for them to use them”. I would love to explore my own country and to learn my own limits through experience, but im never able to do any of these due to the many restrictions I am bound to. I’m always attempting to overcome this challenge by affronting my parents and argumenting my points of view. Nevertheless, it is always helpless.
My expectations for this year are outrageous. I’m not sure if this is very positive, but it has kept me dreaming for years now. Knowing that I’m close to living it literally gives me goose-bumps and it makes my head go into bedlam. I’ll try to stay focus and in my present reality, but with such a year ahead it seems impossible.

"closer to the core"

"the world is a vampire"

"cuackery"

"..."

martens

I've been reading, observing and you can say "re-descovering" the world of fashion and consumism and i gotta say - its pretty damn tempting... Well, im not sure if i can call it tempting, due to the fact that i was already lured into it, cuac, not good at all. Im still waiting for my dr. martens to come home, but its a bittersweet feeling. I love to give myself reasons for going back to the place i was a year ago, but i know its always bs, so ill try to keep my mind in other more relevant sectors of life.
It makes me wonder if this is the right thing, i mean, stopping my consumism (to a certain degree) doesnt make me as happy as wearing a new pair of boots or trying out a dress. Shoould i give up that happyness and guilty pleasure just because it is indeed guilty? or should i continue with my normal lifestyle, knowing that there will be a worldwide turning point, where i am going to be obligated to change my egocentric mentality and please nature (and ourselves, in a healthier way). These are the small, almost non-existante roads of my mind that make me go crazy, but i know my ideals never win... it is upseting and i feel like deceiving myself most of the time, but sometimes i just wonder - what is myself? - the fact that i choose the selfish, cunning, part of me means that that is the real me? or im I the ideals i stand for most of the times? can i be both? no.

Star- crossed Lovers

Shakespeare’s play Romeo and Juliet shows us the obstacles between the relationship of two lovers in the Medieval Times. A forbidden love triggers a series of different aspects that affect not just the couple, but the people around them and even an entire society. These obstacles can be shown in three layers which are: psychological, social and global. The reasons for Romeo’s and Juliet’s failure go from global problems like fate and time and pass through a social issue like lack of advice to finally arrive in a more personal obstacle like deficiency of communication.
Since the beginning of the book the audience was given the idea that the relationship between Romeo and Juliet was never going to be successful. The first visible obstacle was fate, followed by time. These star crossed-lovers tried to contradict their incontrovertible destiny by turning their lives into misery just for the sake of having each other. It wasn’t meant to happen and like always we are not the ones who decide what happens next, the stars are the ones that control every aspect of our being. The Montague’s and Capulet’s feud forced Romeo and Juliet to make everything in a hurry and at the same time they isolated themselves to a point were they had no one that could give them advice. The lack of time was a mayor obstacle in their relationship and it was possibly the reason why they got married. If Juliet wouldn’t have been obligated to marry Paris, she wouldn’t have married Romeo when she did. Bad timing was the reason for such a tragic ending. If they would have had even just a few minutes it’s possible that the ending would have been completely different, but again, it was meant to happen that way.
Communication always plays an important role in every relationship. Any type of relationship that can possibly exist needs it to interact healthily. People can talk a lot and tell stories to each other but communicating is much different. It turns into a hard thing to do when the receiver has a totally different point of view, and it’s unable to understand the message. The communication-breakdown in Romeo and Juliet is splited into two categories: light and heavy and Friar Lawrence. The differences between Romeo and Juliet are described as light and heavy, due to the fact that they are complete opposites and that their personalities are always described as either one of those. The heaviness and the terribly puzzling way in which Romeo speaks is a challenge for everyone who is trying to understand it. It can go be from a poor, uneducated servant to Juliet, but Romeo keeps boasting himself with oxymorons and puns that at the end mean nothing to anyone.
In the other hand, Juliet is completely straight forward and communicates with direct sentences that contain powerful meaning. These two ways of interacting prevent each other from understanding what it is necessary for them to hear. Behind the rush in their relationship and their lack of communication we find Friar Lawrence, the puppet master of this relationship and the only person who both Juliet and Romeo trust in. The friar takes advantage of the “love” between them and uses it to become a hero by joining the Montague’s and the Capulet’s together. Friar Lawrence was the only one who had the power to control the communication between Romeo and Juliet and he managed to manipulate it according to his needs and goals.
Juliet said it herself when she felt her relationship was Romeo was going to fast “this is too unadvised” and it was unadvised indeed. What at the beginning seemed to be two people perfectly surrounded by friends and family ended up reducing to two completely isolated lovers. Little by little the true intentions of every character towards Romeo and Juliet were revealed.

Medieval Love

The Canterbury Tales is a mixture of radically different personalities combined to give us an idea of sundry philosophies of life at the Medieval Times. The concept of love is one of the main themes of this book, despite the fact that every character sees it differently. There are four tales that contradict themselves completely, as a result of each of their author’s persona.
The Knights tale shows distinctly the authors purest value which is honor among brothers. At simple sight there appears to be a love triangle in this story, however the only love shown is fraternal and the woman doesn’t participate in any decision making. Knights always fight for honor in first place and this tale is not an exception. Brotherhood seems to be the only pure love that should exist.
The Women of Baths personality is exposed when pleasure appears to be the main value in a relationship in which women have complete control. Men are powerless and are seen as boy-toys through this lady’s eyes, as a result women are materialistic and possessive. The concept of seeing your husband as an equal is completely banished and forbidden from this story, because the author is the epicenter of strength herself. Its posible to say that love is very present in this tale, not as tender or caring, but as sexual pleasure and lust.
The Clerks conservative philosophy of life leads to a tyrannical point of view in which love is just proven by agreeing to everything men say. It’s basically the abolishment of every right a woman might posses and turning them into a lifeless object. His mind is a place in which equality is totally off the table and “The end justify the means” is applied in everything. It might be possible that love may not be involved in any way in this tale, on the contrary is the pleasure that control gives that keeps the show going.
As a businessman, the Franklin shows his trustworthy point of view by telling a story about promises and equality. This is the only tale in which there’s actually a balance between both sexes, and were everyone treats the people surrounding them with respect. Maturity and self responsibility play a gigantic role in this tale, considering the fact that is the only place were in can be seen in the four different stories. Love as we see it, reliable and comforting, can be observed all throughout the tale and it is seen as a reward for truth.
It is impossible to generalize the concept of love at the Medieval Times. The relativity that this word involves makes every definition posible too vague. Sadly, love can have infinite meanings and they all depend on the connotation that each person gives it. Even if relativity is the key of making an interesting experience in this world, and the motor that impulses society it would be extremely interesting as well to be able lo give love a universal meaning. Although, at the end we end up creating a personal definition based on experience and ideals.